Do you want to know when I perform my best athletically? I do not perform my best when I am at my happiest or after a particularly motivating pep talk…. I notice that I do my best when I am pissed off about something or really stressed out. I guess that I funnel my negative energy to achieve athletic success???
My best college soccer season was when I had the most stress from drama (oh the joys of college drama!). The entire season I was in a really crappy mood and I took out all my aggression and frustration on the field. I focused all that negative energy on playing my hardest and ended up scoring 11 goals that season and making all-conference and all-region honors.
As a runner, I am the same way. When things are going well and I am oh so happy about life, I do not run as fast and I do not push myself. I just jog along in la-la land noticing the flowers and birds chirping. I have trouble pushing myself to run hard and would rather lay in the grass making flower crowns for my head and do some cartwheels while I am at it.
You throw some stress in my life and I then use running as an outlet. I block out all my mental frustration/stress and just run. And I run hard. I push myself, I push the pace, and I end up running faster than I thought I was capable. My marathon and half marathon PRs have come at times when my life is stressful. Case in point:
Does this happen to anyone else? Are there studies that prove my theory?
I guess running is something I can control when I can’t control other aspects of my life/happiness. And when I run, I start to feel better. Its like running allows me to release negative energy and stress and in the process I am much more pleasant to be around! Win win situation.
With that being said, things are not stressful or out-of-sorts in my life. In fact things are awesome!! (Sorry if things are $hitty for anyone out there, I don’t mean to flaunt my happiness) Does this mean that I will have a bad race next week??
So I feel like I am getting slower every week rather than improving……my running times are pissing me off! Grrrrr. Will someone please make me angry right before my next race so that I can run really fast? Thanks.
(Or should being pissed off at how I am running therefore make me run better?!? Perplexing. My theory is already flawed.)